First thoughts

Well, here is my first "blog". I guess its not really my first, I have done a few on MySpace, but to me those really don't count.

I am a mother, a girlfriend, an ex-wife (thank the lord), a student, a singer, and I hope, a friend. My life is pretty average I guess but there are definitely days when I wish it was a bit more average if that means simpler.
All I ever truly wanted out of life was a family, a nice house, a good job. I have the family although the original draft did need a bit of editing. I am working on the good job by going back to school but it sometimes feels like I will never graduate and when I do I am afraid I will not be good enough to do what it is I am hoping to do, be a nurse.
The house is still escaping me. I did have a trailer that I owned, or the bank did but it had my name on the title. Then I moved into the house I am living in now. I love it. It is an old farm house in the middle of nowhere but only 10 minutes from everywhere. It is not mine though. I would love to buy the house and start putting all the work into it that an old house like this deserves but I know that my landlord is not interested in selling. I also know that this is not the time in my life where I can or should make a purchase like this. Like I said I am only working on the good job, I don't actually have one yet. I also don't know if this is where I want to be when all is said and done. There are a lot of unanswered questions in my life.

I guess I need to trust that God has plans for me and mine and that all will work out in the end. Any one who knows me knows that this is easier said than done though. So, thanks for listening to my first blog and I will try to stop in and leave more dribble from my melting mind.